Letter to Ordo Templi Orientis

I have just completed reading Equinox III(10) and have decided that I want more information on the O.T.O., being that I am someone who has accepted the Law of Thelema (actually it would be more accurate to say that through my own "knowledge" [in quotes because I realize knowledge doesn't really exist] of the world (although admittedly very little) I derived a philosophy that is extremely similar to said Law). I am considering applying for membership within the Order, but I am not sure that this is the right time to do so, being that I am currently attending a college where I am completely isolated from the rest of the world and have no car, so mail correspondence would be the only way I have of keeping in touch with the Order. Furthermore, being unemployed, I have little money to spend outside of paying for the necessities of life (the money for which I get from my parents)... Granted I can usually squeeze a bit more out of them here and there, but I do not have any delusions that they would approve of my joining the Order and would not give me money to do so. I try to avoid lying as much as possible (although if I felt that it would be well worth my money to join, I could come up with it somehow)... but that is enough babbling about my pitiful financial and geographic situation.

Aside from I am looking for more information on the Order and am considering applying for membership somewhere down the line, I really have little idea what else to say. If you want to know anything about me, feel free to ask in a reply to this letter. Also, if you want I can send you copies of some of the things I have written in the past that you may find interesting. (I don't include them here simply because if you are not interested, I don't want to waste paper and ink printing them and then postage sending them out. At risk of sounding egotistical, I will mention that you may find some of it worth publishing, although not quite enough of it to make an entire book of their own.)

Just one last thing before I close this letter. During my reading of Equinox III(10), it was mentioned several times that O.T.O. had a secret meaning. I was curious as to what it was, so I started to contemplate it while I was taking a shower this morning (for me, it is just about as good a place as any for thinking). I came up with an answer that made sense and I was just wondering if you could tell me if I was on the right track: